I just picked up her ashes from the vet's office. I thought maybe they would put them in a case or something. I never should have opened it. It's horrible seeing my vibrant, energetic, silly kitty reduced to dust. I keep looking around the room expecting to see her. I keep wanting to call out to her to come see me because I am upset, but she's not here anymore. I don't know what to do. I feel like someone has ripped my heart out. I miss her so much. I don't understand why this had to happen. She deserves better than this. I am trying to think of something we can do to memorialize her. I'd like to plant a tree or a nice rose bush or something special for her. I'm sorry, I just needed to get this off my chest.