I have a beautiful Birman kitten, Sasha, who turns one next month. I'm a RN so I work 3 12-hour shifts a week, then usually am out for 6 hours max a day on my days off. Sasha is my BABY. I will do anything for that cat. She's waiting at the door when I come home, she licks my face after my alarm goes off in the morning, she's waiting outside the shower for me, etc.
Well, I recently started thinking she was lonely because she'll have bouts of craziness where she races around the house, or misbehaves like bites my ankles to play or I come home to destroyed toilet paper rolls. She's a bit of a diva. On the advice of several breeders, I got a very "easy going" male ragdoll kitten to keep her company.
It's been 5 days and I still have a pit in my stomach. The new kitten is nothing short of sweet, but I'm having major buyers remorse. I just don't want another cat. I love Sasha, I can't imagine loving this one as much. My now ex boyfriend got a kitten while we were together, and I never bonded with that kitten either.
I know this makes me out to be a bad person, not loving a baby animal immediately, but I can't help it. Is having one really so bad? Am I a neglectful cat owner if I don't have a friend for Sasha? Does she really even need one? Will Sasha ultimately fall into some sort of kitty depression if I continue to leave her home alone and see her half the day?
It's not like I would give the kitten to a pound or anything, I'm a responsible person, I would give him back to the breeder, but I don't know what to tell her if I do decide to give him back. I feel like the world's worst person.