My beautiful little boy, Sprinkles, (16th birthday in April) has to be put to sleep because of ulcerated oral cancer. He also has had hyperthyroidism for almost a year. He won't eat (he wants to badly), I haven't seen him drink today, and he was hiding under my desk until recently. He was given a steroid shot yesterday and we're giving him norepinephrine every 8-12 hours.
My question is, do I go in the room when he's at the vet? I ask because of the following:
We had to have Dusty put down when he was 5 years old because of renal failure. I was in the room, but my mom held him for the vet. I saw him out of the corner of my eye as he went to sleep. I still think about it. However, I wasn't as close to Dusty since he was more of a loner and had a temper. It was very hard on Mom and me.
I'm autistic, and Sprinkles is one of my constants. I've had him since I was 16 and he has always been "my cat." I carry him around, he follows me around, he sits on my mouse pad while I'm working, we share beef jerky (usually), and he sleeps above my head at bedtime.
I don't want to be traumatized more than I'm going to be, but I don't want to regret not being with him. I'm terrified. My mom won't be with me because she has cancer and the chemo is doing a real job on her and she is in the hospital right now. Obviously, she's my other constant. It's just my boyfriend (constant) and me when the time comes. I don't know what to do.