Hey Cat Lovers, I'm known to write wordy posts, so I'm going to try to keep this short. I don't know that I'm putting this in the right place, so if I'm a derailer, I apologize in advance! Way long story short: I took in two pregnant stray females a year ago. They gave birth a day apart. Mom number one, abandoned ship. Wanted nothing to do with her kittens. I bottle-fed them around the clock, did their "business" etc. and kept them going. Mom number two, took them in as her own. This, made a total of 13 kittens. All kittens were sick, and diagnosed with Feline Herpes and Colici (sp) virus. After going crazy trying to find help, I found an awesome organization that registered them, so long as I fostered. I agreed of course, because a shelter would have killed them. I had seven cats of my own to begin with. Add two mothers, and 13 kittens, and you have 22. Plus two outside that we were feeding. I went from 7 inside cats, to 22 inside cats. Overnight. A year later, I still am fostering ALL kittens. Mama one was rescued and adopted by a Siamese Rescue group. YAY! Mama two passed away a couple of months ago. ALL kittens are still here. Yet ANOTHER stray pregnant female has shown up. This is the 8th we have had in 3 years. I can not foster, needless to say. I tried to get her in our program, they have no room. They wanted her spay aborted. I called "humane" society, they will kill her. ASPCA, will kill her. I cannot take in another 7 cats. She is on her way now to the vet to be aborted. My question, which is why I put it in the health section, is do any of you know what I can expect? My own heart is breaking, I feel guilty, I feel like a killer. I fought so hard through 7 litters to keep kittens alive, and now I'm facilitating their death.
I just don't know how I'm going to process this one. Will Mama be okay? Is she going to be depressed? She was far enough along that there is a good size belly, but I believe probably still a month, month and a half away from popping. I understand this will be physically hard on her, but I am worried about the emotional/hormone side. I am one of those people that firmly believe animals have feelings too. =\ Looks like I got wordy anyway. >.< I'm sorry! Just needed somewhere to say I feel guilty where people won't judge and tell me "it's just a cat." I know there's an overpopulation..boy do I know that with what I have here. I've done all I can and they just keep pressing that this is the best thing. Bah, more wordiness! Thanks for taking the time to read.